28 March 2024
It’s been 3 years since U went home.
I’ve spent almost every day & night since then alone.
I suffer in silence cos I know no1 really cares.
In reality, its fine, I hide behind the hidden tears.
I’ve tried 2 share my pian with others 2 no avail.
In the end, it’s just some old so-called friends 4 sale.
I hope Ur happy & find peace in the afterlife.
I pretend I’m ok 2 others, how I awake each morning is just a roll of the dice.
I miss U so much; I listen 2 the voicemails U left long ago.
Just 2 hear Ur voice & lie 2 myself that my heart isn’t just broken, ya know?
1st I lost Prince, then DMX nothing prepared me 4 U would b next.
Why does God need those I like the most, I’m simply perplexed?
Perhaps He sees what I see & wants U next 2 Him.
Why can’t I come & b with U all? I’m tired of being alone & want 2 be a part of “them”
But it seems I’m not just a bad guy, but a monster!
A person no1 wants 2 be around unless its 2 take or ask 4 favors that benefit only them.
My phone only rings now when folks have a need that’s 4 sure.
I take all the blame, after all I made this life.
It’s no wonder why no woman wants 2 b with me or b my wife!
I’m not tall, dark, handsome, or rich.
I’m not super outgoing, I don’t make 6 figures not even close 2 6’. So I can’t even trip.
Women prefer what they do & that’s not me.
I just have 2 find peace in walking alone cos that’s just how it will be.
DC ©2024
Author: DC
A walking contradiction... What you see isn’t what you get. To get to know the essence you need to open the book and read. An enigma; giving, selfless, conceited, arrogant, loner, author, friend, confidant, trainer, model, actor, and life coach. It really depends on your relationship with him. To someone who doesn’t know him or decides to judge the book by the cover; he is viewed as conceited, arrogant or even mean. Which is the exact opposite of who he is. He’s more of a shy introvert around those he doesn’t know or isn’t comfortable with. Get below the quiet exterior and you’ll find a heart that, to know is to love. He tries to live his life literally walking in love. He would give the shirt off his back to help. Raised by his mother, with no role model on what a man should be. He set out to be different than what he saw in the community. Men who abandoned their responsibilities to pursue whatever tickled their fancy was the norm. These men didn’t care about the damage caused by their selfish actions. He thought the road would be easy, but alas, it proved him wrong. Society had changed dramatically in a short time. People seemed to perceive his love as a weakness. Or perhaps they had not come across a person, who accepts them for them. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop, they tried to manipulate a gift to their advantage. Left alone most of the time, he started to set his pain to print. Never intending for anyone to read it. However, God had a different plan in mind. He would use DC’s pain to show the women; that there are men out there, who do feel profoundly deeper than they think. To reach out to the masses that don’t know how to get others to understand what they are dealing with or have dealt with. He simply wanted to help people on a larger scale.
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