Never give up on someone you can’t go a day without thinking about!
You might be forced to love them from a distance if they can’t or won’t see the value that you bring. The pain is great & heart wrenching.
To want to reach out to them… To have a conversation about nothing in particular… just to hear their voice on the other end.
To feel their arms wrapped around you!
To feel that you “actually” matter to someone… anyone?
That if you died today someone would actually notice or even care?? Beyond the next favor they need from you.
I’ve accepted that I’m not high on the priority list. I don’t even rate higher than a load of dirty laundry.
My feelings 4 u haven’t changed, but the endless rejection has worn me out. I get it… YOU ARE BUSY!!
I’ll give you the space your actions so loudly scream at me.
I’ve tried several times to talk to you. I’ve poured my heart out & done everything I can think of to make amends. All you said was you don’t have the time to think about it. I’ve no interest in fighting or arguing with you.
I didn’t want to monopolize your life… i wanted to be a part of it.
With love Ur expendable friend DC
Author: DC
A walking contradiction... What you see isn’t what you get. To get to know the essence you need to open the book and read. An enigma; giving, selfless, conceited, arrogant, loner, author, friend, confidant, trainer, model, actor, and life coach. It really depends on your relationship with him. To someone who doesn’t know him or decides to judge the book by the cover; he is viewed as conceited, arrogant or even mean. Which is the exact opposite of who he is. He’s more of a shy introvert around those he doesn’t know or isn’t comfortable with. Get below the quiet exterior and you’ll find a heart that, to know is to love. He tries to live his life literally walking in love. He would give the shirt off his back to help. Raised by his mother, with no role model on what a man should be. He set out to be different than what he saw in the community. Men who abandoned their responsibilities to pursue whatever tickled their fancy was the norm. These men didn’t care about the damage caused by their selfish actions. He thought the road would be easy, but alas, it proved him wrong. Society had changed dramatically in a short time. People seemed to perceive his love as a weakness. Or perhaps they had not come across a person, who accepts them for them. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop, they tried to manipulate a gift to their advantage. Left alone most of the time, he started to set his pain to print. Never intending for anyone to read it. However, God had a different plan in mind. He would use DC’s pain to show the women; that there are men out there, who do feel profoundly deeper than they think. To reach out to the masses that don’t know how to get others to understand what they are dealing with or have dealt with. He simply wanted to help people on a larger scale.
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