27 Feb 2024
Some days come & go & they never get a 2nd thought.
Others came & things happen that make U wish U never got outta bed.
On those special days when everything is right & U feel great. Sadly those days cant b bought!
On the days when things go awry from the start & U wonder would I actually be better off dead?
My life since a child seems 2 be a repeat of the same song.
The best way I can think 2 say it “welcome 2 the dawn.”
I come 2 realize & accept that my definition of a friend doesn’t seem 2 xist anymore.
I haven’t evolved with the times. Opportunities rarely happen. I don’t seem 2 have the key 2 the door.
May 28, 2021, July 17, 2023, Feb 27, 24 three dates that changed how I see my life.
Traumatic days used 2 happen very rarely 2 me.
Cause I know love is pain.
It’s been 14 years; I know I’ll never see U again.
Promise me that U’ll be ok.
By Ur silence U agree & this will be my last Mei Day.
I’m trying 2 be ok, but 2 much lost has broken me.
Thru all the tears its hard 4 me 2 see.
I never thought I’d have 2 stop loving U again.
Am I so bad that I can’t have love or even real friends?
I sit & stare at nothing as the days pass into years.
I can’t seem 2 figure out why I can’t have that of my peers.
I’ve stopped trying 2 communicate since I seem 2 say the wrong thing.
My intent is never 2 harm, but my words miscommunication they bring.
All I can say is sorry 2 those who ever had 2 deal with me.
Now I strive 2 live like a ghost, someone invisible 2 Ur reality.
Perhaps my brain is broken & I should’ve never actually existed…
my thoughts R more twisted than I imagined.
Have I always been this way…?
DC ©2024
Author: DC
A walking contradiction... What you see isn’t what you get. To get to know the essence you need to open the book and read. An enigma; giving, selfless, conceited, arrogant, loner, author, friend, confidant, trainer, model, actor, and life coach. It really depends on your relationship with him. To someone who doesn’t know him or decides to judge the book by the cover; he is viewed as conceited, arrogant or even mean. Which is the exact opposite of who he is. He’s more of a shy introvert around those he doesn’t know or isn’t comfortable with. Get below the quiet exterior and you’ll find a heart that, to know is to love. He tries to live his life literally walking in love. He would give the shirt off his back to help. Raised by his mother, with no role model on what a man should be. He set out to be different than what he saw in the community. Men who abandoned their responsibilities to pursue whatever tickled their fancy was the norm. These men didn’t care about the damage caused by their selfish actions. He thought the road would be easy, but alas, it proved him wrong. Society had changed dramatically in a short time. People seemed to perceive his love as a weakness. Or perhaps they had not come across a person, who accepts them for them. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop, they tried to manipulate a gift to their advantage. Left alone most of the time, he started to set his pain to print. Never intending for anyone to read it. However, God had a different plan in mind. He would use DC’s pain to show the women; that there are men out there, who do feel profoundly deeper than they think. To reach out to the masses that don’t know how to get others to understand what they are dealing with or have dealt with. He simply wanted to help people on a larger scale.
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